I’m sure it goes without saying, but this has been the darkest week and a half of my life. Archer’s second seizure, the disruption of Jake’s training, not having any idea what causes the seizures, going from a zero med family to a 3 med family, and saying goodbye to Jake again…. have all nearly done me in. Sunday afternoon, about an hour after saying goodbye to Jake, the worst despair completely washed over me.
Then on Tuesday when I woke up with an eye infection that I was sure I would spread to the boys, I honestly had no idea how I would continue.
1 Peter 5:8 says “…your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.” It took me some time to realize that the attack on my family did not end in the hospital with the seizure, but continued and came home with us. Saturday night, just hours before Jake and I shared our testimony at church, I became incredibly sick to my stomach, and for awhile, I did not think I would be able to get out of bed Sunday morning. Fortunately, God’s Word tells us that “No weapon formed against you shall prosper…” (Isaiah 54:17)
So today, even though I was totally bummed that it was more sickness that kept me home, God’s truth that “all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28) proved to be true. I was able to spend time fasting and praying, and I have a peace and a joy that I haven’t had since before Jake left the first time back in January. Praise God for his goodness and mercy and blessings.
This morning, the boys and I were reading one of their Bible story books, and we read the 23rd Psalm. Verse 4 says, “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me…” That was my anthem throughout the day. I am exhausted after a day of battle, but I am ready to fall into bed tonight with God’s promises in my ears and on my tongue. #morethanconquerors